Becoming Me

As It Should

(8-04-03)

You, I shut you out.
Blocked addresses,
Dead ends.
You cannot reach me.
You were
My Mother's twin.
And left me as did she,
You did again.
Oh, you were there,
Physically.
Emotionally,
Not so free.
You wanted me to be
Something that I'm not.
And I just wanted
You.
To hold and smell and feel
Close.
To tell me everything
Will be alright.
To keep me safe
At night.
Not your job, I know.
Already you have had a Son,
And less than perfect
These things went.
I was sent
As your second chance.
We failed,
You and I.
You could not be
The thing I sought,
I could not be
The person that
You thought I was,
And we could never be
The pretty picture
We had hoped to see.
Love's a strange and
Stupid child,
We are far too wild
For our own good.
Everything works
As it should.
Everything works
As it should.